OUR BEDROOM/MACHINE/SOLUTION – Our new Normal until his kidneys arrive!
It has been sometime since I have updated my readers. My husband and I are currently living “a new normal” as some call it. Our normal since the diagnosis of kidney disease looks very different from one year ago. Every night involves about 20-30 minutes of getting my husband and his machine ready for home dialysis and each night I thank God for the people who created this machine. It is has been a miracle in our home. It is during this process that we begin our nightly prayer declaring his healing, calling those kidneys out of the tomb (John 11) and seeing them resurrected. Also during this 20 min., we have committed to pray for others who are going through life-altering sicknesses and disease. We are believing for an outpouring of healing in this next season and we intend to declare it and SEE IT.
MY HUBBY’S NEW KIDNEYS!
This brings me to what I want to talk about today. I preached a message a month or so ago at a women’s conference entitled, “God’s Promises Don’t Expire.” As I read and reread all the promises God has given me concerning my husband’s health, I began to realize how important His promises are to seeing the fullness of healing manifested. My declaration of faith combined with God’s grace brings a supernatural “rest” where I know that I can depend on God to perform His Word. This is in God’s hands and He always wins. We must undertand that it is not just about healing but believing that His promises are true for every area of our lives. His promise is a promise and God does not go back on His Word. In fact, He longs to perform His Word …even show off…even say “I told you so.” 2 Tim 3:16 tells us that all scritpures in the Bible are inspired by God and with that, we can rest assured that what we learn from the Bible comes directly from our Father. I love 2 Peter 1:4, “And because of His glory and excellence, he has given us great and precious promises. These are the promises that enable you to share his divine nature and escape the world’s corruption caused by human desires.”
I would like to say that this has not been a super easy journey! Sorry to disappoint my readers but this has probably been one of the most difficult seasons in my life.
If I stay focused on where we currently are in the journey, I find myself sinking. Now what does sinking look like? Well, there are days I don’t feel like laughing or talking – just functioning is enough. There are days that I just pour myself into my work and then I don’t have to think about it. There are days when I know I should be laying in my prayer closet and worshipping but I just don’t have the energy; But with all that said, I know that God is the strength of my life. Certainly, I have found that if on those sour days I loudly declare God’s goodness and His promises, something happens inside my spirit that I cannot explain. It is as if my spirit man listens to my words and acts on them and soon I begin to walk in joy and freedom knowing that God will do what He has promised and no matter the outcome, God is God and He is always good.
Now with our Father, timing is everything. I don’t understand why he just can’t bring that kidney today or tomorrow. That part will never make sense to me but scripture is very clear that in this life there wll be trials and tribulation. I heard a man say recently, “Don’t waste your trials.” That has always been my motto. If I am going through a season, I want to “milk out of it all that I can.” There is purpose in everything and I don’t want to “waste my trial.” This one has been just a bit more complicated and difficult but God will have His way in all of it. Now remember that God does not send sickness and disease, but bad things happen. It is a part of the world we live in. It is how we respond that is important to God. Remember, God’s promises always see us through. The Message Bible says that we are to consider it a gift when tests and challenges come at us from all sides. The Message goes on to say that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely but let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed and not deficient in any way.
We never really know ourselves until we see ourselves under pressure. Is it not true? When these pressures in life put the squeeze on us, we are like a tube of toothpaste and what is really inside comes to the surface and it is never quite so perfectly white.
Your breakthrough is just a promise away. It is just that moment when you decide that God is good no matter where you are in life and that you are His first concern. You are first on His list today. You hold first place in His big lap. You are the apple of His eye and your concerns are His. HE truly is good and when you can grasp that in every situation, hardship and conflict in life, then you have truly grasped your breakthrough. He will never leave you or forsake you.
OK, THIS IS MY SMILEY FACE (IN MY DREAMS) ON THE BEACH!!!
Come on, as we say at the HUB. When something is good, we cry out, “Come on!” This is good stuff and it can change your life.